On again

I started chemo on December 8. The same day I went back to work. The week was hard to adjust waking up at 530 instead of 8 and living on 7.5 hours of sleep instead of 9. I was ready to put my head on my desk and take a 10 min nap more than once! I am taking Temador for chemo again. I took it in 2000 and 2003. I will be taking it in combination with Avastin. I was supposed to get my first infusion of Avastin on the 12th but the nurses and docs were leery of giving it to me so close to my nose surgery so we are waiting on that until January 2. I am having a little nausea with the Temador and defiantly some fatigue but as I said before I have had a big adjustment to my schedule. I didn't get too much time to adjust because I still had 5 days of vacation time left to use up before the end of the year. So I worked 7 (!!!) days and now I have 19 days off. How nice is that? My company shuts down between Christmas and New Year - that's why I get so much time off.

Today we got 10 inches of snow and Todd and I got out the old snowmobile and went wild! It was great! We had a blast. I can't wait to see how sore my arms will be tomorrow because it was so hard to steer in all this snow. I was a little hesitant about going but you know... you only live once, right? AND the helmet will protect my head and my nose. So I went for it. I even did a jump. Just like old days when me and my sister would take it out and ride behind the school about 20 years ago. I can't believe that thing still runs. I'm glad I went - no one tell my docs, OK?

Call it karma- about 10 minutes after we got home I had a seizure.

Stop already.

It doesn’t ever seem to stop. I have quit wondering why. When we started the conversations about my latest surgery the docs wanted to get rid of the tumor to be alleviate me of the seizures. Great! I thought as I placed my hands in theirs while I cried and they said this was the best option. I had my surgery and was seizure free for about 14 days and then I had one. Ok I thought. One well, with no schedule I seem to be having them more frequently. I had one yesterday night at about 7 pm and then today at 130 pm. I’ve been really tired this week from starting back to work. Could that be it? But what explains the ones while I was off and getting 9 hours of sleep and napping? How frustrating.

Breathe

As in I can Breathe now! I decided to have my nose fixed while I was off. The surgery was to straighten my deviated septum. The surgery was fine but the week after was torture. I had splints up my nose on both sides that looked like straws for a week. The nurse told me those were better because you can breathe through them. Humph! Don't think so. Maybe 20%. I still have about a week of healing and then will decided if the surgery was worth it. As for now... jury is still out.

Here is a picture of before:



The after will be soon.

I don't wanna!

I kinda just don't want to this year. Can we skip Christmas? I mean, skip all the things Christmas has become that has nothing to do with the holiday. Scrooge? ME?!?! I was going to sit down today and start addressing my what seems like an endless amount of holiday cards while I had a few moments but when I looked in the card drawer there is none. I usually buy the cards the year before so I don't have to think about it. And then the holiday letter. I love getting cards but I love getting updates on what happened to my (diatant) friends and family more. So I like to write one myself to all of them. Ohh... should I even bother?

It's over

Am I really ready to go back? Back to work. Back to normal? Start again? I can say that I am ready to move on - that's for sure. It's been a long time since October 14th. I've had a good recovery time. I saw a ton of people and most importantly, I got to see my husband every day. LOVED that. I actually talked him into making a snowman last Sunday when we in the middle of racking up a few more inches of snow. Aren't we cute? Too bad Mr. Frosty suffered the next day by some hoodlums knocking him over. Not to worry - I followed them and yelled at them. They'll be in jail before they are 18. Jerks! Todd rescued Mr. F and righted him. It was on our list to rebuild him a head. Well, he was dumped on his side again. Those little jerks were at it again. That time I didn't see them so one for them. Frosty (the torso) is now in the side yard safe and still waiting a head. Soon, Frosty, soon..



Anyway - I hope everyone had a good Thanksgiving and got to spend it with loved ones. I know I did.

I have to go and pack my lunch and make sure I have my computer bag ready for work tomorrow. I'm going to bed early but I don't know if that will help. Layoffs start this week at the office. Tomorrow will not be a fun homecoming.