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Well, I finished the second round of chemo - actually I was 2 pills short because of my wonderful memory I left the dang things in the fridge when we went away for the weekend.

I had a MRI today and the results are not the best. Shit. There are some bright specks on the scan. There is even a spot that is progressed into my brain. The other tumors have stayed on the surface of my brain. The docs have to meet with tumor board tomorrow night and they will all make their recommendations. I feel the spinning down the funnel feeling starting. There is a lot going on right now and I am going into shut down mode. Layoffs start this week at the office and yesterday morning we all got an email stating a mandatory 1 week off of work... UNpaid.

A girl needs a break. I'm taking a sleeping pill and heading to bed.

Shiver me everythings!

OMG My car registered -8 this morning on the way to work. Ugh and WTF? Detroit area was colder than Anchorage Alaska yesterday! Is that exciting? I think not.

Well, I did it to myself again. I can't sit still and pay attention. I've had a low grade fever for over a week and last weekend I went to kickboxing came home and went xcross country skiing and then as I pulled in the driveway I noticed fresh snowmobile tracks. Todd was out tooling around so I got ready and we went out. I made dinner after we got home and then collapsed at 10 with a 100.9 fever. Pay attention my body screams. Sunday I went skiing again and took my niece sledding. Again. Fever. Monday I was achy and lethargic all day at work but raced home to take a 45minute nap so I would be rested for kickboxing. Did that and came home almost in tears. I felt horrible. I was achy all over and just didn't fell well. Ok so I am listening now. I stayed home from work Tuesday and didn't go anywhere. Wednesday I went to work but not to the gym. I feel better! Getting rest really works! Imagine that.

Work announced layoffs again last Friday. My goodness I will be glad when this is over whether I am on the chopping block or not. Speaking of - lunch is over.

Happy 2009 already!

WOW! It's January already. I completed my first round of chemo with out any major happenings. The usual stomach issues and a little nausea was it. Thank goodness for that.

Todd and I had a wonderful holiday that we spent with family and friends.

I finally returned to work on Jan 5 for good - well until the next day off (Hooray for MLK).

I see Doc Anderson Friday and am not scheduled for tests until the end of the month. Until then...

PS on the "woman" issue. I finally stopped bleeding all together now (for about 3 months now) and am off the depo shot. It's been 6 months since my last shot and no period has come back. Love that but now I am also concerned. OBGYN took some hormone levels so hopefully all is ok. If it's not one thing it will surely be another.....