Not so good news

I had a MRI this morning and on the screen was my brain with some extras. There is visible growth again. I knew something was not right because of the seizures. The tumor is growing in the same area as it always has been so that is one good thing. It may be the only one. The docs are not sure what they will do next. There is a few different options that my neurologist talked about but he needs to speak with the whole team. They all need to get together and come up with a decision. My neurologist, oncologist and a doc from radiation will all decide on my future. More news to come Monday.

How are you they ask?

I am tearing up inside. I am scared. I want to run.

I went to another doc to see about the seizures. He switched my meds around and hopefully that will control them.

For now - trying to be positive. Trying.

Involuntary

It's a big word if you think about it. My company just sent out "voluntary separation" severance packages. I work in automotive and live in the Detroit area so it's not a big shock. Still this voluntary separation will be followed with involuntary separation.

These words are making me think about all the things I do in my life that I have choices and opportunities for. I've decided to become more voluntary in my life. I am finally going to talk to a college guidance counselor about getting back into college. I have had enough with the involuntary part of my life. I have started to also speak out at work more and people are listening. I deserve more money and those promotions. I had a meeting with the head of my department yesterday (yikes) and we talked for a bit about these issue. He said he was going to look into my past and find out what happening. Hope something positive comes out of it. TBD. Voluntary.