I've been mad

I've been pissed off more like it for a few weeks now. Mad at cancer.

Mad at it for getting into people who do not deserve to go through this journey. Mad because of what I have been through was relatively easy and mad at what I hear other people must go through with surgeries, treatments and transplants. I'm mad at the people who claim they will "smoke until they die" and never get cancer while an innocent person who has never smoked gets lung cancer and dies.

I went for a walk this morning at work and saw a woman smoking who had a heart attack less than 7 years ago. If anyone should realize, we humans are not invincible it is her. What is it going to take most of us to wake up and live a healthier lifestyle? Hopefully not a heart attack like the woman at work.

There is more I could be doing to be healthy anyone around me can tell you that if they have seen me devour anything chocolate or witness my love of Doritos. I am certainly not a role model. But I'm trying to stay alive and play the cards I have been dealt. I just get so pissed at the sight of it. Cancer. It's everywhere. So I guess I am just mad.

Phew

The "rogue" spot was indeed that. It was not in the latest MRI. Phew. MRI was Wednesday and the tumor board recommends continuing on as usual. Good. Yes.

I bought 5 Luminaries:
Aunt Sam
Mike
Mom
Barbara
me

Would you?

Would you buy luminaries for yourself for a cancer walk? I always thought it would be a honor thing but who else would buy them if I don't??

PS - not doing the walk myself which makes me a ptuz. I'm in for next year - I SWEAR.

PSS - I just made myself feel like a bigger putz because I have never done a cancer walk for myself. Next year!

PSSS - Why hasn't anyone done this for ME?