Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Stuffy nose issue

I have had "allergies" since February. I have been to the doctor several times for it and have been given nose sprays that don't really help. I have so much mucous that I go through a box or so of tissue a week. Bloody noses all the time and other gross issues. I finally went to the Allergist last week and got the allergy scratch test. I'm not allergic to anything. He suggested more nose spray. I fought back saying that they don't help and lead to bloody nose. He convinced me to try a sample for two weeks. I gave in.

The negative allergy test had me very plagued at what could be causing the mucus issue so I started looking up things on the (sweet sweet) Internet. I found several people with the same issue that are taking the same drugs I am for my tumor. Huh.. WTF? The doctors didn't put this together? I am going to have to talk to My oncologist about it Friday and see what he has to say.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

More to worry about

The pills, shot and now more pills are not helping the bleeding thing.

Friday, November 16, 2007

I’m tired
I’m tired of stuffy nose
I’m tired of going through a box of Kleenex a week
I’m tired of getting nose bleeds everyday
I’m tired of waking up at 12am every night
I’m tired of waking up sweating and freezing all at once
I’m tired of hitting the snooze alarm for at least ½ hour every morning because I can’t wake up
I’m tired of getting to work late
I’m tired of work
I’m tired of headrests
I’m tired of bleeding from my uterus
I’m tired of the same routine at kickboxing
I’m tired of seeing my husband only on weekends
I’m tired of being so far away from everyone
I’m tired of being a cancer patient
I’m tired of treatment every other week
I’m tired of MRIs
I’m tired of my house being messy
I’m tired of my hair falling out
I’m tired of caring how I look because I feel ugly any way
I’m tired of having a vagina in a world full of dicks
I’m tired of being on the verge of a meltdown
I’m tired of acting like nothing is wrong
I’m tired of trying to please everyone
I’m tired of wanting to stay home
I’m tired of the constant worry of a possible surgery #5
I’m tired of having “episodes”
I'm tired of writing
I'm tired

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

More episodes

I had another episode this evening. I also started to bleed again. In a down mood lately. I'm not sure if it is because of the weather or what. I've been wanting to stay at home and just keep to myself. It's hard to get going at times. For anything. I'm having an off week(s) I guess. I hope this is not a side effect of the depo shot I loved last week so much.

Monday, November 12, 2007

"The change"

Night sweats - check
Hair falling out - check
Crabby - check
Abnormal periods - check

Going to ask Dr. A about Pre mature menopause. Another thing to think about...

I hope there is a blood test that can provied hormone levels that can indicate the onset of menopause.


OMG I found a website for the NAMS - North American Menopause Society!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Depo

*man warning*girl talk*

Recently my periods had become longer and longer. It's a side effect from the Avastin so I wasn't too worried about things until it was about 3 weeks later and it hadn’t stopped. Heavy one day and nothing for 3 days. On and off, on and off. I could go into more detail but out of the kindness of my heart I will spare you. I spoke with Dr. A about things and he gave me a bunch of options to look into but he wanted me to get ultrasoundS - one external and the other Internal!! He wanted me to get checked out for other issues that could be giving me the problem. Good Lord, something more for me to worry about. Had the tests done and went to see the gyno. Everything is normal surrounding my girlish parts (phew) so we decided on the "shot". Holy hell I am loving this!! No more bleeding and I get to have UNPROTECTED SEX with my husband!! AND not worry about pregnancy! Happy days are to be had!!

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Relax

I need to know how to do this. I always run around and can never sit still.